the physics of sleep

i fully realise that i should be asleep but i can't drift off. i really struggle nowadays. it's almost as if my mind is too busy buzzing over the colliding thoughts in my brain to even consider slowing down for a bit.

i decided to write to you because you normally put me at a great sense of ease. i haven't been feeling at all like myself this past week, perhaps it's the tiredness, perhaps the effect of sixth form is finally taking it's toll on me.

i finished the bell jar yesterday - a truly remarkable book throughout, despite my feeling that the standard slipped just a little bit towards to end. plath truly is the queen of metaphor.

i'm not too impressed with the way i've started each paragraph in the same way each time, perhaps i am getting lazy, perhaps i do not care for variety today.

fact # 43
i think i will begin a book that does not interest me in the slightest and only ever read it before i plan on going to sleep in a small attempt at feeling drowsy. i feel a book of physics is highly appropriate...