happy birthday jesus

i am very happy today - have a wonderful christmas everyone, more will be written following festivities or from my sick bed following eating my own body weight and more in those little sausages wrapped in bacon. mmmmmm.

fact # 56
i hear those sleigh bells ringing and jing ting tingaling too.

jacobs rockette

i am currently sitting on a chair in gate 53 of newark liberty international airport being reminded to keep my baggage with me at all times and watching the sun rise lazily into a cloudless blood orange sky. you guessed it - it's time to go home. having just checked my watch take off is in exactly one hour, providing we set off on time.

this trip has been wonderful and i've bought so many lovely things. my main aim of this trip was to come away with a beautiful pair of decent sized heels and new york certainly did not disappoint with the selection! the first pair i truly madly deeply fell in love with were a pair from steve madden, but as my feet are so small they didn't make them in my size and the next size up were sold out in every branch we went to = major disappointment. but, then we went to bloomingdales and i spied the most beautiful marc by marc jacobs heels i think i've ever seen in my life. i tried them on and they fitted amazingly - it was evidently meant to be! i am a very very lucky girl.

another highlight of the trip was last night. again, i was lucky enough to be given tickets to the radio city 'christmas spectacular' show and it was absolutely wonderful. the show consisted of twelve main scenes, my favourite was the penultimate which was a nativity scene. it lived up to its name and was truly spectacular - even the three wise men had beautifully dressed up camels. wow is a word that does not give justice.

anyway, i've jut been told that boarding will begin in five minutes, so i'd best be off.

fact # 55
i would have liked to tell you the name of the aircraft i'm about to get on, but the boarding tunnel thing is in the way.

65 west 54th street

i made it to new york at last and judging by the surrounding weather conditions i can completely understand why the flight last night was delayed for so long. the snow is so thick here, i've never seen anything like it! in places it's 18 inches deep and even in the city it comes up way past the middle of my shins.

i completely love it here. the people, the places to go, the things to see, the atmosphere, even the smell is wonderful. following writing this i plan on getting ready and then going for a lovely long wander through snowy, slushy-puppy new york before going to eat at this wicked italian bar place which does some of the best chicken i've ever had - i always get the same thing.

fact # 54
i saw a pug dog today wearing red dog sized wellington boots - only in new york!

vs017

i find it highly ironic that my last post regarding my flight to new york was titled "on time". today mum and i were really happy that there was no more snow and that we were able to get to heathrow quickly and easily. as we had checked in with no problems online the night before we were all smiles as we made our way to the virgin bag drop. it is here that we were told that our flight had been delayed for 12 hours.

fact # 53
i should have taken off eleven minutes ago

on time

despite the snow settling, thankfully the roads aren't so bad and flights are still going out of heathrow... sort of. so it looks as though new york is still on (just!) however, as much as the snow is clearing up here, heavy snow is forecast for saturday and sunday evening in new york - it's gonna be an experience to say the least!

this was supposed to be uploaded a couple of hours, but i was doing a million and one other things simultaneously and ended up shutting my browser and completely forgetting about it. well done kitty.

fact # 52
an afternoon of reading and little miss sunshine will do wonders for the soul

schnee

as predicted this week has been wonderful. monday evening brought the old year thirteen's prize-giving. the whole process was lengthy and at times parts of it were unnecessary yet the walk home from school was definitely worth sitting on those awful uncomfortable maroon chairs my school is so fond of. the walk home was great, it was dark, i was freezing cold but i was incredibly happy trudging up a hill only to trudge down another in my boots plugged into my ipod.

tuesday brought another lovely evening in the treehouse. never does the atmosphere, food and general niceness of everyone there fail to impress me. it was particularly lovely this time around with the inclusion of a massive christmas tree and more fairy lights and candles than usual. lily and lorraine were as gorgeous as ever.

wednesday brought the 'exciting' snow. i hate snow, these are just a few reasons why:
it messes up peoples plans,
it messes up the buses and trains,
it makes the majority of people revert to the mindset of a five year old,
it appears a good idea at the time, but then you end up cold, wet and grumpy with stinging hands.

the walk home from school on this day was not so fun due to the snow fall and the slipperyness that is caused, yet i survived to tell the tale and was lucky enough to have yet another lovely evening, this time with daniel at his house. despite not watching the end of ice age 3, what i saw of it convinced me that in her previous life alex was definitely the dinosaur tooth wielding maniac weasel whose name escapes me at present.

the account of this week leads me to today. there is an 80% chance of snowfall tomorrow and because of this my school decided to tell us before we had even left that school tomorrow was cancelled. despite not being able to see simpy about my english this is a blessing in disguise that presents me with the fantastic opportunity of a lie in and a day that for once does not compromise of biology, chemistry, english and geography.

until the next time.


fact # 51
jamie just told me "its snowing, PROPERLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!". having looked out of my window i am sad to confirm that this fact is unfortunately true - and it's settling too.

perplexed state of mind

having been initially somewhat sceptical about the 'mouth to mouth' series on bbc3 since thursday i have watched four out of the six episodes and surprisingly, they are very good and are really going to help with my piece for a listening audience in english.

i want this coming week to simultaneously fly by and drag... i want it to fly by as new york begins on saturday, but to drag as i've got so many lovely things planned and i'm going to miss a tonne of people a hell of a lot when i go stateside. if only you could be in two places at once.

fact # 50
new york, concrete jungle where dreams are made of, there's nothing you can’t do, now you're in new york. these streets will make you feel brand new, the lights will inspire you, let's hear it for new york.

strawberry blonde

having just flicked my eyes briefly over my last post, i am pleased to inform you that i've generally feeling much better this week! on sunday i went to the jingle bell ball at the o2, i didn't really go for the musical content but to have a laugh with alex and dan, and i have to admit that flo rida was incredible! what a contrast, the cribs on thursday and then all these strange capital artists on sunday. the phrase out-of-place springs to mind, but saying this i had a great time.

yesterday brought an impromptu curry night with dan, it was brilliant. i forgot how much i enjoy doing this with her, although i have to say she really has to up her game on wii sports resort...

i just got home from stones and now i'm as blonde as i can go in one hit, there's still red in it but with the heavy concentration of blonde i am now an interesting shade of strawberry blonde. i love it, despite loving my red hair i've decided i prefer lighter colours, i think they suit my face better however i definitely wouldn't rule out dark changes for the future.

a long post today, anyway i have to go now

until the next time

fact # 49
i sat still in a chair for four hours today.

alladin

another bad day. tomorrow should be a lot better, i'm very much looking forward to seeing alex and danni.

fact # 48
i wish i knew what makes me like this.

manic depression and hyper sexuality

i still can't seem to get my head around how quickly time is flying by, one minute it is monday and the next it is friday. one o clock until half three today was perfect, birdsong and then the dark room. unfortunately following that i had to go to croydon (which i hate doing at that time of day, especially at this time of year!).

the main purpose of todays entry is to discuss last evening with you. last night brought the cribs and in my opinion they were truly spectacular. they had a really lovely mix of old and new songs and they played for ages, it was one of those gigs with a great atmosphere and one that i won't forget in a while. it was really lovely to see everyone - the journey home from brixton by myself however wasn't too fun, especially as i'd been dancing on two sprained ankles all night but it was the lesser of two evils. my feet are black from an accumulation of different bruises. tasty. yet despite this, a top night. if my life flashed before my eyes and i was with these guys, i definitely would not mind. -head wobble-

fact # 47
i struggle to remember what my life was like before spotify.

the city that never sleeps

i cannot believe it is the first of december today and that i've nearly had this blog for three months, time has sped up so much it's been hard to measure recently. it's as if my life is cascading out of a fully open tapped burette and no one knows how to slow it down... i don't know where the days are going or whether i'm coming or going. despite this i've been happier within myself this past week and i haven't had as much trouble sleeping - i hope it stays like this for a while longer than a solitary week suspended in my schedule of sleeplessness.

the first of december means eighteen days until new york and twenty four days until christmas. yippee! isn't it strange that new york is the city that never sleeps, and i am the girl.

fact #46
i kept thinking that the ba strike was going to cause loads of problems for this trip... until i realised that i'm flying with virgin and not with ba at all!

moths

i lay on my back for hours staring at the ceiling, trying to understand this feeling. i attempt to forget, but all i hear is the words you said, going round and round in my head.

fact # 45
butterflies have been an alien feeling for a very long time.

bliss

everything about you is how i'd wanna be, your freedom comes naturally. everything about you resonates happiness, now I won't settle for less.

give me all the peace and joy in your mind

everything about you pains my envying, your soul can't hate anything. everything about you is so easy to love, they're watching you from above.

fact # 44
i'm currently watching muse v koi on nme tele, could you tell?

the physics of sleep

i fully realise that i should be asleep but i can't drift off. i really struggle nowadays. it's almost as if my mind is too busy buzzing over the colliding thoughts in my brain to even consider slowing down for a bit.

i decided to write to you because you normally put me at a great sense of ease. i haven't been feeling at all like myself this past week, perhaps it's the tiredness, perhaps the effect of sixth form is finally taking it's toll on me.

i finished the bell jar yesterday - a truly remarkable book throughout, despite my feeling that the standard slipped just a little bit towards to end. plath truly is the queen of metaphor.

i'm not too impressed with the way i've started each paragraph in the same way each time, perhaps i am getting lazy, perhaps i do not care for variety today.

fact # 43
i think i will begin a book that does not interest me in the slightest and only ever read it before i plan on going to sleep in a small attempt at feeling drowsy. i feel a book of physics is highly appropriate...

purple playsuit

white lies was the best gig i've been to in a really long time, they played fantastically and the crowd was all that i wanted at the arctic monkeys and more. alex and i met a guy called scott who weirdly enough lives in tatsfield and knows a few people that we do to - it's a very small world.

saturday morning brought around an early shopping trip to croydon before going to see new moon - it was okay but not "amazing" and i can completely understand why reviewers said what the said about the film. i wish there'd been as much emphasis on music as there was in twilight, but oh well.

claires party last night was good. thank you so much to amelia for making me drink so much water for diluting purposes - and of course to claires parents for putting up with us all.

now to go and wake charlie up...


fact # 42
slumber: a natural and periodic state of rest during which consciousness of the world is suspended.

fifty on our foreheads

just a quick one today as alex has just arrived at my house, tonight we're going to white lies which should be really good - and i also managed to get muse tickets, how very cultured i am.

short and sweet.

fact # 41
the support bands are rubbish so we're going to nandos. i reckon it's an excellent plan.

you can never beat the bandit.

last night i saw the arctic monkeys, and alex turned pissed me off. he pissed me off at reading too for that matter, but i decided to forgive him. but not this time - this is why.

it's undeniable they are a great band with great music and that alex turner is reasonably attractive (i hope he still is under that unruly mane of matted unkempt locks - it's hard to tell) but he does nothing, absolutely nothing to endear his fans to him. sure he feels "umcomfortable" in the public and media eye, but what do you expect, you're going out with alexa chung and you lead one of the most successful british bands of the current era. when i was in america i was reading nylon and they interviewed him - you could tell that this general "fuck this shit" attitude had come across because the reporter did nothing to make their trendy american readership like him - he came across so badly in this article that i even turned to my mum and said "hey, take a look at this."

i guess what i'm trying to say is that if he continues to get further up his arse with cocky arrogance then he'll manage to alienate a whole army of fans that i'm pretty sure are very devoted and dedicated.

i am also 99.9% sure that the couple standing next to me conceived a child last night, so congratulations nine month in advance. moving on...

i lost a debate to caterham by three points today, which is unlucky but the debates were so close in quality i'm sure it could have swung the other way with another set of judges, even with the same identical speeches. well done to previous croydon girls dan and sam, i still love you!


fact # 40
"and you said 'this is the first day of my life, i’m glad i didn’t die before i met you, but now i don’t care, i could go anywhere with you... and i’d probably be happy...'”

substances and their properties and reactions

we got our atomic structure test back today which i found really hard but it turns out i did pretty well so i'm pretty chuffed! chemistry's going well at the moment however i know that the mole test is going to kill me. ah well.

it bothers me that whilst i'm typing this i can't find the button to change the font, where has it gone?! if this publishes in times new roman i will be very upset, but i guess i'll have to put up with it.

life at the moment is very much like chemistry. people are atoms and have their specific set of characteristics and mannerisms, in other words their properties. they'll either get on with you, and bond with you in a good kind of chemical reaction, or you won't get on at all and there'll be a chemical reaction of the wrong sort. tightly knit friends are covalently bonded, those who get on pretty well but aren't as close could be ionic, and then after that weak intermolecular bonds. those that are metallically bonded within friendships can put up with loads of stress because they can be hammered and stretched and still be a pefect example of a metal once the rocky period is over.

then there's the delocalised electron that tries to please everyone but never really belongs to a specific atom. no one really notices it's importance within the strucutre because they're too busy chatting to their fellow lattice atoms, but without the delocalised electron, many things such as the ability to carry charge(or in human sense, the carrying or exchange of an important message or vital information or something like that) cannot happen.

it is only at this point that the delocalised electron is finally recognised and missed.

fact # 39
yesterday was the worst day yet.

born to run, and eat roast.

i'm sitting here with a full belly following an amazing roast round at a family friends house listening to mr bruce springsteen - forget food baby, think more along the lines of food triplets! i had a really nice today, although i've lost count of the number of times i played:

• 40 40 it
• hide and seek

the fashion show is officially over. i reckon it went so well relating to the amount of time we had to prepare for it! i think the better show was definitely last night but that the crowd was better on friday, ahh well, you can't expect everything to be dandy both nights! i'm not in the mood for geography at the moment, sorry b man, bishop's hull and lydeard will have to wait until my free period tomorrow.

until the next time.

fact # 38

"i want to know if love is wild, i want to know if love is real"

warrior dance

i've decided i'm going to start typing in a truly british fashion by discussing the weather. it's been rubbish today, dark and depressing, however i much prefer it when it properly hurls great globules of water down - as if it's definitely made up its mind like today opposed to pathetic spitting where it seems as though the weather is undecided with what to do with itself.

the fashion show yesterday went a lot better than anticipated, although one of my catwalks was pretty hectic as the music started and hardly anyone was in their place! apparently quite a few people missed it, so hopefully we'll be able to put that right for tonight.

i'm off for a nice long bath now.

fact # 37
i can cook nice omlettes.

cat fight.

i am so full of anger right now that my hands are shaking so badly it is hard to type.

fact # 36
the claws have come out.

how much longer until you break?

your mind's about to fall.

the torando of my life seems to be getting bigger than ever and doesn't look as though it's going to die down any time soon. monday brought a fashion show rehearsal until half six followed by a meeting about world challenge. it's going to venezuela and it looks truly amazing although i'm still undecided whether i want to make the commitment of going, it asks a lot - particularly during a level years. on top of everything i do already i'll be expected to raise £4000. by myself. pretty daunting huh?

my day was pretty okay apart from the chemistry test we had last thing that lasted the entire lesson- about half way through i was pretty sure i wouldn't finish it in time. this test required more brain power and effort than my chemistry gcse did overall. i managed to answer every question set - now i just have to wait to see how i did. fingers crossed. speaking of gcse's we had our certificate presentation today. i'm still so chuffed about my results!

i'm off for what is obviously going to be a super thrilling couple of hours or so battling my way through geography write up, before revising english, reading the rest of my talking head and then preparing another debate.

looks like i've got a fun night ahead of me.

fact # 35
venezuela is the nearest country to grenada. coincidence?!

lullaby

i have had such a busy and varied weekend and upon reflection a rather lovely one too. this song is spectacular:

"when your sparkle evades your soul, i''ll be at your side to console. when your standing on the window ledge i'll talk you back from the edge. i will turn your tide, be your shepard and your guide. when you're lost in the deep and darkest place around, may my words walk you home safe and sound.

when you say that i'm no good and you feel like walking i need to make sure you know that's just the prescription talking. when your feet decide to walk you on the wayward side up upon the stairs and down the downward slide, i will turn your tide, do all that i can to heal you inside. i'll be the angel on your shoulder. my name is geraldine, i'm your social worker.

i see you need me. i know you do."

fact # 34
there is no fact for today, and that is a fact.

gunpowder treason and plot

so the debating went really well, we won the first round, went through to the final and won that too, so eliot have hopefully won over all when considering the year nine / ten team got through to the final and won as well.

my mum still isn't very well, we're meant to be in manchester at the moment waiting outside the apollo for the doors to open to biffy clyro, but she's too much in a state to go which is really disappointing, but at the end of the day i guess i have to suck it up and put up with it. i hope it's okay and it's nothing too serious, it's been lasting weeks.

on a lighter note last night i experience tgi's for what i believe was my first ever time. it was real nice to see ck again after such a long time and it was good to meet natalies new peoeople at riddlesdown, and of course see natalie herself! now she told me to include something in here that happened ages ago and i said i would write about it but i can't think what it was... so sorry natalie, i fail (i'm going to blame the biology essay which has taken me more than two and a half hours to write three quarters of a side of a4.)

time to say goodbye.

fact # 33
there's loads of banging outside, i love to watch fireworks but hate the noise.

literary hero

"i couldn't get myself to react. i felt very still and very empty, the way the eye of a tornado must feel, moving dully along in the middle of the surrounding hullabaloo."
-sylvia plath.

fact # 32
i think i am in love with this woman and the way she writes.
this is exactly the way i've been feeling and this gives it perfect justice.

discuss dispute deliberate

you will be pleased to know that i've cheered up a lot since the last entry! halloween was good, i went round to dannis with alex and gingey (cant really call her that now seeing as i am too) and i met lucy. it was nice to see everyone although i dont think i was much fun cos i was still so tired from the plane!

the remainder of sunday following a much need kip at dans was spent kinda in the house with alex before the drama that entailed regarding the problem of emilys billy talent tickets. upon discovering natalie wanted to see canterbury they decided to go together (a genius idea) and we had a flying trip to nandos before hand which was all yummy and smelly.

i forgot how much i love brixton academy, this was the first time ive been since ,it became the o2 academy and all the signs and stuff are so different! im still convinced they should stick little stars in the sky above the standing area though to go with the whole dark sky lit up building theme. luckily i'll be back there in a couple of weeks, white lies who i missed at reading for the prodigy and then the cribs in december. before that i'm going to manchester this weekend to see biffy clyro - dead excited!

today has been a good if not very busy day. we finished another chemistry booklet today, we're moving so fast, so quick! the interhouse debating is tomorrow, hopefully it should be great.

fact # 31
i can't believe it's already november.

camouflage

i'm sitting alone in my room on the floor with the lights off, the door shut but there's still not enough darkness. the laptop burns into my freshly sunburnt face and dares me to turn down the intensity of the glare, but i won't give in. i'm too stubborn.

that's the problem with me, i'm stubborn, obstinate, inflexible, wilful, mulish, bolshie, obdurate, intractable and i have pride. too much pride to lower myself to be anything less than the person i aspire to be. i have no problem admitting to my flaws, the ones mentioned above are just a few that makes up the vast catalogue of kitty, yet i know that these are qualities that will lead to my destruction.

it's halloween which means masks and masquerading - i love that word. i remember writing it down in one of my english exams in the summer and then spending about five minutes worrying at the end during the checking that i'd spelled it wrong. spelling was never one of my strong points. however, people masquerade all the time, they'll be all sweet and smiley to your face and then as soon as you leave the room you know the claws come out and the cattiness begins. so if its an almost everyday occurrence, it seems to be at my school, whats the point of trying to pretend your'e something that you're not when people do it everyday of the year?

please, excuse my melodramatic, erratic writing of today. i'm running on four hours of aeroplane sleep and not much else. i'm going to listen to keane now, and wonder what the fuck to do with everything.

"this is the last time you fall on me for anything you like, your one last line, you fall on me for anything you like, and years make everything alright, you fall on me for anything you like, and i no, i don't mind...

fact # 30
i do mind, for now onwards at least.

liam&keith&maxim

once again i find myself in the tea lounge, but this time waiting to be picked up to go to the airport.

i just checked through my emails since being away (i have so many.. mostly from people ticketmaster and gigs and tours) and milton keynes superbowl caught my eye. i went last year with joel jack josh max and ewen and it was wicked but i got so so sunburnt! pendulum there was fan bloody tastic cos there was so many people there! like, wow. anyway next years line up is so far wicked,

the prodigy
pendulum
enter shkari

that's all i can remember for now. i so so so so so so so want to go, despite having seen these three before but i just know that it's going to be such an intense gig.................................
the bad news, is that i'm away. the good news is that i'll be in america.

fact # 29
the prodigy got their name form a type of synthesizer that liam used.. bet ya didn't know that one eh?!

tea time

at the moment i'm sitting in a tea lounge and everything is quiet except for the torrential tropical rain outside - there's no windows so if i stick my right arm out far enough then it'll be soaked through in around ten seconds. my mum has just returned from the shop with some more nutmegs, a little grater, a bracelet and a new lighter, fascinating stuff.

today is the day of the wedding so it's a real shame it's pouring down - especially as it's going to be on the beach! hopefully the rain will blow over in a couple of hours, at the moment its ten past twelve and the wedding starts at four, so, fingers crossed everything will be fine.

yesterday was wicked, we went round most of the island in the morning including the rain forest with a crater lake and monkeys, a waterfall and a nutmeg processing plant, awesome. we had to rush through lunch to be on the dive boat at two where we headed out for two locations to snorkel and scuba. the first was amazing and i was surrounded twice by shoals of tropical fish. the second was an underwater sculpture park which was good but the figures were at times really creepy!

home tomorrow, in all honesty i'm missing it.

fact # 28
when i go away to really hot places one of the things i always end up missing the most is carpet... strange huh?!

capital punishment

Sadly another day in paradise has gone which means i’m a day closer to going back to school. I’m about three quarters of the way through ‘a thousand splendid suns’ by the guy who wrote the kite runner. I haven’t read the kite runner and really didn’t think that this book would be my cup of tea. In all honesty it isn’t at all... but for some reason i find myself continuing to read it without giving up. Not many writers have that kind of writing ability.

I’m not sure how i’m going to spend tomorrow yet, but i can assure you it’s safe to say that sideshow bob hair will remain and that my tan is coming along nicely. The fish here is truly amazing. I think it was yesterday that for the first time i experience true Caribbean style cooking – grilled marlin with some form of coconut curry sauce, it sounds absolutely rank but it came exceedingly close to thai green curry on the level of taste, a truly astonishing feat.

I’m knackered, writing up geography coursework is an especially apathetic yet simultaneously exhausting afternoon activity opposed to laying on the beach. Ah well, it needs to be done.

See you on the other side.

Fact # 27

I hate having to write this in word first, it means that it creates capital letters.

England time 23.16

Grenada time 20:16

Sunday 26th October.

the curious incident of the snorkel and the ankle...

Right so if i were on the internet i’d be typing this straight onto kittylikescake, however i am not because although i have the option of connection to an unsecure network the router isn’t responding, so i thought i’d type this into word and then later copy and paste it – moment of genius eh?

Grenada is hot, humid and bloody amazing. Today i woke up really early due to going bed pretty late because of the difference in time and we explored a little before having an awesome fruit filled breakfast. I spent my morning topping up the tan (or in this case burn.......) by sitting in the shallows of the pool reading “the curious incident of the dog in the night time”. i remember it being ublished ages ago and everyone raved about it and i bought a copy, sat down to read it and thought it was a terrible read (i didn’t pick up on the whole aspergers thing) so i never really got into it. However, this time around, having had it set as wider reading for English i got well and truly into it and can easily understand why people thought it was such a good book – not because it was brilliant writing, but the style it was written in is totally novel and really does portray Christopher’s syndrome.

After letting lunch go down with more curious incident i went snorkelling in the shallows above the coral and saw loads of different species of fish which was amazing, sadly the only one i could properly identify was an angel fish.

By this time it was around half four so i went back up to the pool, finished the book, had a couple of drinks, showered and now i am here about to go to dinner.

What a lovely day.

Fact # 26
Always check for steps when coming out of a scuba shop wearing a snorkel because you don’t really think to look down as your mind is already with preoccupied with “what a twat i look” – if you don’t you will fall and you will sprain your ankle...... trust me, i did it today and it bloody hurts.

Fact 26 & ½
I’ve got very crap weak ankles. I’ve badly sprained my right ankle three times, my left twice (excluding today) as well as nearly breaking the right on dannis trampoline and the left falling down the stairs in prêt in Croydon. Very bad times indeed.

19:05 grenada time.

00.05 england time.

tuesday 23rd oct.

cross chips

i spent the whole of monday wandering around a sadly, very uninspiring bluewater with dan. it's the first time i've been there in about eighteen months and i am sad to report that there was nothing spectacular that caught my eye - out of all the clothes shops i came home with nothing other than a new cable for my ipod and royal gloss. i know what you're thinking... shameful.

yesterday was better though. originally the plan was to go to brighton with amelia but at east croydon amongst the drug dogs doing searches we decided it would be freezing and grey and that we'd be much better off (money wise and temperature wise) going to london instead. amongst this important decision making a dog sat down next to a man and he had to be taken away for searching and questioning - exciting stuff. we ended up getting the train to charing cross and going for a walk with no real destination, it was good.

getting home pretty early i found out once more that amelia had never seen the notebook! so i insited she stay for dinner cos my mum was out and we watch it, we ended up treking in the freezing dark to the chippy to get chips to accompany the feast we already had waiting at home of olives and dips and yummy stuff like that. mmm. i love that film. i finished the book last week, that was good too.

today so far i got up around nine thirty and then started straight away on english holiday work which hasn't been too bad cos i've managed to finish it now. i've decided i'm going to have a break right now and then attack my chemistry after lunch leaving my nettlecombe write up for the caribbean! we have to leave the house at five o clock tomorrow morning... which means i have to wake up super early. it'll be definitely worth it though.

until the blazing caribeean sun.

fact # 25
one large portion of chips from master chef is competant at being able to fully feed two hungry teenage girls. never feel the urge to buy two large portions.... there will be far too many and you will end up feeling obese!

two vaughans for the price of one

turns out i didn't end up watching saw again due to a spontaneous trip to croydon in the evening to nandos and grants with dan. lots of talking, lots of chicken, lots of laughs. couples retreat was... interesting. good in some places, utter shit in others. a great night over all, miss her bucket loads.

fact # 24
"the real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right place, but to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment"

pie-saw

it's finally half term and i am soo excited for the opportunity of sleeping! last night i went to amelias gathering and by the end of the night she was more than a little worse for weather, other than that all in all, other than that it was a good night. alex and i ended up eating pretty much a whole loaf of bread and bottle of golden syrup.
mm.

alex says: "pie. is good. like kittys anigav. im so witty. ahhhh."

tonight i'm gonna make myself watch saw. i've never seen it yet been on the ride so i reckon it's about time i understand jigsaw and his wrath.

fact # 23
ikea bins are ideal for your best friends to throw up in.

moustache

it's miraculous that i managed to get an a in my biology test based on my current levels of tiredness and lack of revision due to the experience of nettlecombe. instead of heading straight to bed last night, i instead involved myself in the antics of making fajitas (i just had to look up how to spell that) for lots of people as well as many many moustaches. i was so tired in english today i fell asleep - right next to ms forshaw. she didn't seem to mind too much though, thank god.

i am so looking forward to half term, the break couldn't come at a more appropriate time. tomorrow i'm seeing alex which should be really good and then hopefully dan on monday before going away to grenada. super excited for the wedding!

just finished uploading the photos from nettlecombe, reckon i'll put some clothes away, unpack my suitcase do a bit of reading and get a nice early night. emily's lent me the notebook, at the moment it's really similar yet simultaneously different to the film but i'm enjoying it all the same.

until the next time.

fact # 22
i'm thinking i should maybe start to include pictures or photos within these posts.. then again, maybe not.

"ivie, what shall i call this... fml?"

i'm sitting in a smelly room in nettlecombe next to ivie, its about 22:00 and we've just spent the entire day standing in a river and eight different points and measuring it.. we had to walk pretty much the entire length of it, fun fun times. whoever thought geography could be so much fun! despite this moaning i guess we're all really really lucky with the whole lack of rain thing, that really would have taken the biscuit.

we have to hike up a hill like mountain structure here to get signal, so at least we're getting a daily workout to help with the whole tea and cake, and generally shite food situation. yesterday it was really dark and i dropped my camera on the hill and we couldn't find it anywhere... which meant getting up super early this morning to find it. thankfully we did - phew- but it was totally covered in ice.... but it WORKED! -double phew-

so despite soggy times, there's been fun times too.. mainly:
"fuck a duck"
ciaras wellies
bmans manic laughing
dissolving dinner
ghs
uno
the fact we have ONE plug in our room
ciaras nakedness
bman seeing the nakedness
bman listening to lady gaga on the train
losing knickers...

and other things that ivie and i are struggling to remember, i reckon it shows how tired we are.

tomorrow we're off to study human population change.....................................
so i'd best get some zzZzZZzs.

fact # 21
it's about time you were back in my life, cause i miss you honey.

unfaithful

i've been very unfaithfuk and i have no excuse other than the fact i've been really busy and currently feel like laying on a death bed. wednesday brought a biology field trip for our coursework... in the pissing rain. we had to identify at least six different species of the eleven that were given to us on a piece of paper in a field and then we had to do a paper on them... it was soggy to say the least. this day is what accelerated my lurgies.

i have the cold and flue of satan - i can't talk, it hurts my arms so much to type this and this morning i'm off to a field studies centre in somerset for four days for my geog coursework... it involves standing in a river lots and hiking down it. i am so not looking forward to it.

fact # 20
i like purple strepsils and the peach soothers the best

morning has broken

this week has been very busy. yesterday i spent pretty much the entire day at model un debating for the netherlands, overall i guess i'm glad that i've done it but feel as though we were really chucked in at the deep end this time! max came up from the iow this weekend totally unexpectedly and turned up on the doorstep on friday with sally when alex was around. it was great to see him and an awesome surprise.

fact # 19
you know you truly miss someone when songs in assembly at school suddenly make you think of your best friend.

knife edge

yesterday making the pear and apple crumble i cut my thumb open with a serated knife. normally i'm not too bad with things like this but the fact it was serated meant it sort of ripped my skin rather than make a nice clean cut... not so nice. this morning i thought it had pretty much sewn itself back together but trying to get some toothpaste out of the tube taught me different, blood spurting in the bathroom to a kill bill level. at the end of the day the crumble was worth it, i had left overs for breakfast. i reckon its always nicer once its had the chance to sit around and get all gloopy and cold. mmmmm.


fact # 18

it would appear i am still a sucker for paramore. i'm about half way through brand new eyes at the moment and i'm really liking it.

big girls don't cry

i'm sitting in front of the fire in the lounge watching the second round of boot camp x factor at the moment - boo. a dog in the beeches woke me up today because my window was open, he kept barking and barking so i decided it was someone probably telling me to haul myself out of bed.

the advert for go compare came onto the tele, right at the end where the stupid guy with the moustache is in the background, he does a little head shake thing that really reminds me of michael mcintyre...

mum is going to york tomorrow, i don't like it when she goes away cos dad is out so much i'm normally very much alone at home.

fact #17
...bravery is a quality of spirit that enables you to face danger or pain without showing fear, pain, uncertainty or intimidation.

carbohydrate cravings

i've decided that this entry is going to have a SEMANTIC FIELD (yes english revision) of food to reflect my hunger........ because.......

it turns out my mum doesn't want to go out for thai
-cries uncontrollably-


fact # 16
i'm one of the few people that doesn't like the sandwich selection at sainsbury's. prawn mayo? tuna and sweetcorn?
ALL I WANT IS A PLAIN HAM OR CHEESE SANDWICH GODDAMNIT!
is that honestly too much to ask for?!

miranda

the past two days have been great. i didn't get in from lily's until really late last night (and on a school night as well - tut tut!) having had chinese (i seem to have had this a lot recently... strange, i'm normally a taste of bengal kinda girl....) and today is a friday which is always a good thing.

now for a nerdy bit:
in english today we started to analyse the collector by john fowles properly. i didn't realise i could feel this way about a book - the way that it's written and the way that fowles has crafted the characters is truly amazing - even the name of the miranda has been thought about (it means she who must be admired / out to be wondered at - how appropriate!) this book made me stay up til three in the morning to finish and i am SO glad that it's one of our set texts. if you haven't read the collector i highly recommend it, it's published by vintage.

photography this afternoon was great. i got duncans 35mm olympus to work which made me super happy. i just got it out my bag to tell you some interesting things about it and you'll never guess what it has written on it!!! underneath the main lens is the word "miranda" - WHAT A COINCIDENCE - in the same day AND blog entry too. wow. it's at times like these i truly feel as though our lives are already mapped out for us from birth, but i'm not gonna get all philosophical on you now.

mum is at the hairdressers atm and i've taken full advantage of wifi in the breakfast room and the loud kitchen stereo. we've only just got lungs by florence and west ryder pauper lunatic asylum despite me being a florence fan since dog days and kasabian follower ever since empire but even more so since the geniosity that is underdog and clubfoot.

i'm really glad i've started this blog. i never expected this to become a "great source of comfort" as anne frank hoped hers to be, but it has. hopefully i'll be going out for thai green curry later (my favourite food, aside from a treehouse steak)

until next time.

fact # 15
i sometimes get the feeling i was born a generation too late.

knowledge

"ignorance is your new best friend."

fact # 14
there is no fact # 5 in this blog.

do or do not, there is no try.

i'm so tired and i've got work to do. i just finished my english and i've still got geography and chemistry calculations to do, as well as redraft my resolution for the model united nations conference. in all honesty i could do with a big zzzZzZZz. todays been non stop!

i'm reading anne frank at the moment i'm nearly half way through, i'm at the point where she's describes random times during the day, i think the most recent one she did was of dinner time. so perhaps i'll give a full blown description of my day.

6:57 woken up far too early. stagger into shower and remain under the water long enough to feel awak enough to tackle my hair before ramming a two slices of (burnt -sigh-) jammy toast down my throat.

8:20 registration and off to prefect my yr 11 form... despite signing up to prefect a junior school one, oh well. that went by pretty quick, apparently they had their morrisby testing today. next up was catching up reading address unknown.

9:05 english, was actually pretty decent today and overall was a pretty uneventful lesson. saw dorgan outside the staff room to arrange to see her about some super hard calculations i couldnt do on yesterdays homework before.......

10:30 private study. wow. writing a resolution for unmn concerning the netherlands feelings regarding the ecology and environment is so much harder than it sounds. a whole hour and ten minutes sifting through pages like fact book on google. nice one.

11:45 geography in room 50, more about newcastle upon tyne and the different wards. nicole said she was going to get a train to newcastle so she could do the best homework ever - made me smile.

writing this has made me realise what a boring day i've had! and whoevers reading this is probably thinking... when the hell is this going to stop?! so i'm going to.... NOW.

bet you didn't see that one coming eh?!
i'm dying my hair this colour tonight:
http://www.loreal-paris.co.uk/hair-colour/all-over-color/recital-preference/666-babylon-intense-red.aspx

^ is it just me or does that model have a really staring eye...?

fact # 13
when i was 13 i dyed my hair electric purple.

the cusp of vessel 18

i just got in from having lunch at priory farm. i had a slice of turkey and ham pie which was the size of a quarter of a bowling ball. feeling pretty hefty atm if i say so myself. yet another one of my friends is turning 17 tomorrow (happy birthday cave) shame you don't live as near to me as danni does - that way i'd have two lift givers! i can't wait to have a car, i am definitely going to abuse the horn on it. mums car makes the most funny noise! haha

i'm in one of those don't know what to do moods, torn between having a bath or having a shower... decisions decsions. i'll probably opt for shower, being more eco friendly like. my internet connection is also rapidly dying and i have to do some typing for dad. fun.

on a lighter note i got tickets to see white lies = major result. i officially can't wait until november: white lies, biffy and arctics all in one month. wow.

fact # 12
my favourite white lies track at the moment is fifty on our foreheads.

trophy allergies

i woke up pretty late today and then did all the normal stuff like showering, eating, tidying. i'm seeing alex again tonight, i'm feeling lots of chinese, lot of tele and lots of talking.

dad decided to cut the grass about half an hour ago without telling me so i didn't get a chance to ram my hayfever tablets down my neck fast enough. cut grass + sunshine = unhappy kitty.

short and sweet today, i've got to "explore how fay weldon makes trophy wife a successful short story" before alex gets here so i'd better get cracking.

fact # 11
i was glad to find out that my budgie isn't the only one to headbang..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GGL9vMA_lNA

mac and cheese

my dad has done the most extraordinary thing and gone and shaved his eyebrows off... he looks so strange i often find myself just sitting and staring at the shadow of tiny bristles growing back. he looks like an alien. the funny thing is he has to go to a posh masonic dinner on saturday with mum and sadly it's not fancy dress so he has no excuse for it. when mum asked whatever posessed him to do such a bizzare thing he just kind of stared at her looking very confused, as if he didn't quite know himself.

i'm listening to the resistance at the moment on spotify. i love the album artwork (outside and inside) and so far i'm really liking the music so i think i'm going to borrow mums cd copy and load it onto my ipod. a lot of the time my mum is cooler than me.

mu mum just called my phone to tell me food is on the table opposed to calling me.
oh god. we're turning into one of those american families.

fact # 10
i love listening to london calling really really loud when i'm walking. it makes me go superfast.

73

i've had a top weekend. yesterday i met up with alex during the day which was great as i haven't seen her for so long and we went to see dorian grey before getting the bus to dans house. i acutally really enjoyed the film, apparently it was given rubbish reviews though?

once we got to dans we all got ready before getting the train to london and having a generally awesome time, despite the trampy old man on the bus on the way back to vic who swore at us a lot. he was so mean! if i hadn't been shit scared i would have told him to wash his mouth out, and in reply to his comment about us being foreign (wtf) turn to him and said, love, i'm from croydon.
eugh. nasty man.

we got to bed around a reasonable two o clock, yet my sleeping was not a great success as i had to share a mattress with alex - i forgot how much she spasms and thrashes in her sleep! woah.

i got home around lunchtime and havign been working solidly on my hench english homework every since - i've only just finished the essays! the sheer volume of work we're getting is already at crazy levels and it's going to get worse... oh dear.


fact #9
i love people who make me laugh

heels

i remember coming on to here to talk about a specific something but now that i'm here i can't remember what on earth it was - don't you hate it when stuff like that happens?

this week has lasted far too long, i can't wait for the weekend. i'm going up to london saturday evening with danni and others for her birthday, i haven't seen her since results day... which was ages ago! she's demanding that we wear heels so i've just spent pretty much the last hour empting the contents of my wardrobe over the carpet only to spend another twenty minutes hanging it all back up again.

fact # 8
i'm in love with white lies even more than usual, i didn't think this was possible.

hey there, buckaroo

today was better than yesterday, i guess i wasn't in the type of writing mood... the same kind of feeling you get when you know you really ought to read something but can't summin the will power or the brain energy to do so.

i've been back to school, what, four whole days and strongly feel as though i'm in need of another holiday! despite saying that, so far, on the whole i've really been enjoying my lessons.

this summer i went on the most amazing holiday to america, mum reckons we did well over 3000 miles on the road. out of all the places we went to phoenix and antelope canyon in arizona, bryce canyon in utah and yosemite in california were probably just some of my favourite places - the funny thing is that all the places that i went to keep cropping up at school. for example, in biology we were watching a video on biodiversity and it just happen to focus on the desert that we drove though and the cacti that were everywhere around us where we stayed... in geography there's a whole section on bryce canyon!

it was a life changing holiday, never did i think i would get the opportunity to sing songs about wagons, rattlesnakes, cacti and "buckaroos" with cowboys into the night during a dry electrical storm in the middle of a desert with a cowboy... awesome.

i'm thinking a bit of tele and an early night tonight, i'm shattered.

fact #7
"the world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page."
st augustine

feet

it's been one of those "i wish i didn't have to get up and go to school" kind of days.

fact #6
i tend to always pick the kind of shoe to give me blisters.

dog days

it looks as though its about to start raining outside - the kind of spitting pathetic annoying rain that doesn't really try hard enough... the worst kind of weather. if it's going to rain, at least rain properly with chubby globules instead of to skinny drips. it would seem as though autumn has finally arrived, summer seemed to go on and rush by at the same time. autumn and spring are my favourite seasons.

london was packed today and surprisingly warm as well. why do starbucks make their pepeprmint tea so hot?! we managed to get a seat on the bus with all our bags following a flying trip to yo sushi! by the skin of our teeth. i've got a stonking headache, it's probably because i haven't drunk enough today (as usual) but i'm going to blame the baby who cried relentlessly on the 73 back to victoria. i didn't mind too much about the noise though. it's not noisy now, infact all i can hear is the laptop and the budgie. he does this awesome head banging thing and it always makes me laugh, he is so stupid but lovely, despite how much i complain about him.

fact #4
i wish i had a black cat with a red collar.

american lemon

it would appear that all of a sudden, as of this morning sophie and i are running the junior debating club... strange that i have no problem standing up in front of hundreds of people in competitions ranting on about the same tired, repeated topics (euthanasia, capital punishment) or drumming into innocent year sevens minds that they should pick junior debating above all other clubs on a monday lunchtime and yet simultaneously, often find myself in the position of an awkward lemon...

i'm going away for the five days before christmas to new york, it will be something ridiculous like my eleventh time there and it will be bloody freezing but i am so looking forward to it. one time i went in february and it reached -20. that was the trip i saw the foo fighters at madison square... on the walk back to the hotel the empire state was lit up in red, white and blue, it was presidents day and an excellent night at that too. i love it in new york so much - the people, the places, the atmosphere, even the halal food station on the corner of 56th and 6.

speaking of food, i think i'll go and get some more icecream.


fact #3
simultaneously and specifically are two of my favourite words.

moles and magic trees

today was the first day back at school and despite being convinced i looked like a power hungry lesbian in my suit for the entire day, it seemed to go okay, despite missing alex and danni in particular a hell of a lot. it's a big change and i guess i'm just going to get used to it. today i realised just how relieved i am that i'm no longer doing history and instead doing english. roll on two years of english lang lit, geography, biology and chemistry.

i have been given a chemistry textbook especially for calculations.
omg.

on a lighter note it's my friends 17th birthday today, i can't believe it! i hope she doesn't kill any pedestrians and therefore qualify to give me lifts ;) i was going to put a magic tree in her card but i thought she would like a twenty pound note better...

fact #2
i hate change, but try to adapt to it as quickly as possible.

number one

at some point wandering around my house i appear to have lost my left shoe...

fact #1
i can be very forgetful.